My Journey With PTSD

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Please be aware this is just about my experience and that I am not a medical professional!

Back in 2015 I was diagnosed with PTSD; I remember being asked what I knew about the condition and to be honest I knew soldiers could be diagnosed with PTSD and that you have flashbacks to past events but that was about it. I never thought I could be diagnosed with it because of the horrible things I went through with being bullied at school.

Through the years of living with PTSD I have learnt quite a lot about my condition on a daily basis and also hearing the myths about PTSD. I thought I would share with you things I learnt about it through living with the condition in everyday life.

1. Anyone can be diagnosed with PTSD not just soldiers.

2. Triggers can happen even through the smallest of things. For example I sometimes get triggers if I see a young person messing about with their mates. For me this can take me back to my experiences of getting bullied quickly. Sometimes the flashbacks just come and I don’t know why.

3. PTSD does not have to come immediately after you have gone through something traumatic. I was diagnosed with PTSD from being bullied when I was in school but now I am not getting bullied by others but it still affects me to this day. I find it hard to trust people in college as I don’t know if they are being genuine.

4. I remember when I once told a teacher that I had PTSD and that’s why I was in a bit of a panic they said to me ” get over it and could I really blame them for picking on me. “At the time I felt so stupid and weak. But now I realise that having mental health problems doesn’t make you weak at all in fact I would say on the good days I have it has helped me to realise having mental health problems is not weak at all and it doesn’t define you !

5 Ways Stagecoach Performing Arts School Has Helped Me In Everyday Life

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I started going to Stagecoach Performing Arts School about 3 years ago. I remember going to just watch some lessons they did with my mum before I had my taster days to see if I liked the environment I also got to meet the teachers. I went to see their Christmas Production so I could see the types of things I would do for a show. This really helped me to lower my anxiety; I would highly recommend doing this if you have anxiety. I enjoyed my taster days so much everyone was so friendly and kind.

Looking back on my journey with being a Stagecoach student I thought I would share with you some ways Stagecoach has helped me on a daily basis.

1. Stagecoach has helped me to not to be as scared about trying something new when you don’t know anyone there. When I joined Stagecoach I didn’t know anyone else but by doing something where I didn’t know others it helped me to be more confident about trying new things.

2. Stagecoach has helped me to socialise with people of all ages as well as helping me to talk to new people. When I first started going to Stagecoach I was very shy but now I have lots of friends and I am now more confident when talking to others.

3. By doing productions in front of quite a big audience I have built up my confidence when talking in front of my class when I had to do a presentation for my course work. At Stagecoach we work on projection and speaking clearly so people can hear us better this has also helped me when doing presentations in front of an audience.

4. By joining Stagecoach I have built up on my team working skills as we do a lot of group work. We are given a task to do then in groups we come up with ideas and who’s playing which roles etc.

5. When we are rehearsing for a production we are doing; we may need to do research for the show. For example I may do some research on the character I am playing or I may research about the time the production is set for example the production maybe set in Victorian London. By doing this I have found it easier to read around a topic I maybe doing for some college coursework .

My Experience Volunteering In A Charity Shop

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I’ve been volunteering at a charity shop for a while now and I thought I would share with you my experience. I first started to volunteer at the charity shop as I wanted to find a work experience placement with college. I wanted to learn new skills and gain more experience in the working environment. I am known as a Retail Volunteer as I volunteer in one of the charities shops.

I volunteer at the shop once a week for a couple of hours. At the shop I do lots of different tasks both with customers and in the stock room. To begin with I might help sort through lots of the donations we have been given; I go through each bag making sure we only price items which are in good condition. The donations we get range from clothes to books, accessories and lots more.

I will then go through all of the clothing items we can sell and put each one on a clothing hanger and put the correct sizing cube on each hanger too. I make sure that each item is priced before putting each item out on the shop floor.

Another job I do is stock rotation this is where we bring stock from the shop floor back into the stock room to create more space for more recent items to be put out.

I sometimes may research the donations the shop gets so that we can tell customers more about the product for example old books or cameras.

To begin with I helped to make the shops window displays. I now create some of the window displays by myself. We base each window display design on a theme for example orange and gold or we might do a window display based around a current event like the World Cup or a season like the Christmas season.

When making the window displays I first try and find a main item or piece of clothing that stands out to me I then work with other items to create the feel and look I want the display to have.

Here I am finding clothes for my window display design I am also dressing the mannequin in the clothing I have chosen.

One of the very first window displays I created was based on the colours orange, cream and gold. This was because I had found a lovely orange dress I wanted to put into the window I then found cream and gold items that worked really well with the orange.

When creating window displays I not only have to find clothing for the mannequins but also accessories to go with the items of clothing. For example jewellery,shoes and belts.

I also make bric a brac window displays. This could be making a window display for a upcoming  sport event like Wimbledon. To create a window display based on this theme I may use tennis balls and tennis rackets with tennis shoes. I may also add some books about the sport into the display.

Here is a window display design I am starting to make based around Wimbledon 2018.

I made a window display based around The World Cup 2018.

Here are some photos of my window display based around The Royal Wedding of Prince Harry and Meghan Markle. I steamed a wedding dress and bridesmaid dresses as well as finding bric a brac items for the display too.

Lastly I have just recently started serving customers at the till independently!

I would definitely recommend volunteering at a charity shop if you are interested in working in retail or you want to work in the fashion industry. I also think you would enjoy volunteering in a charity shop enjoy if you like being creative and love fashion.

Riding For The Disabled Association: Helping To Train Billy

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Billy is a young pony that loves to look around and be the first one to know what’s going on. He is a very sweet curious boy. I love riding him; I fell in love with riding him the first ever lesson we had together. There’s nothing quite like the bond between a pony and its rider.

Recently I was riding Billy in one of my lessons when we went out on a hack in the woods. Riding him now made me think about how far he has come from being the new little boy at the stables. I remember when I first started to ride him last year helping with his training. I helped him learn the ropes of working as an RDA pony.

In the beginning I worked with Billy a lot to try and improve his focus so that he didn’t look out of the riding school as much. He is now so much better but he wouldn’t be him if he wasn’t just a little bit nosey. Billy and I have done lots of work together practising 10 metre circles, doing loops and going in and out of cones. I then started to put halts in to make sure he was listening to me but also to keep him interested and engaged in lessons.

When I go horse riding I do have a lead helper however sometimes I do go off the lead rope. Billy and I have done a couple of loops of the riding school off the lead rope together. I have worked with Billy to make sure he stays on the track and goes into the corners. As well as being able to change of rein in the school with other horses and ponies in the school too without him getting distracted or confused or putting his ears back to to the other ponies and horses.

I’m so proud of Billy and how far he has come. He is now able to be ridden by lots more people. He still sometimes forgets to lift up his feet. I love seeing him learn new things. I love that more people get to ride him now; this fills me with joy knowing that others will love and enjoy riding him too. He is definitely a brilliant and sweet addition to the RDA family!

I can’t wait to ride him again soon and too see what he achieves in years to come!

YOOCAN: A Supportive Online Community For The Disabled

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I remember when I first found out about this online community through Instagram. On Instagram they share stories of many different disabled people from around the world. When I looked at the website a big smile grew across my face. This was because I found a place where disability was embraced and not laughed at.

YOOCAN is an online community where people with disabilities from all over the world can share empowering stories about living life with a disability. Here people write about many topics for example they might do a product recommendation . Or write about what it is like to travel with a disability. Another topic I love to read from is all about other people’s hobbies.

I can’t say how many stories I have read about covering so many different topics. When reading others stories and experiences I feel that I am not alone. I also feel that others get it and understand. It’s a great way to get tips and tricks on things I may find hard to do such as cooking. I have got some good fashion styling tips as well. For example when I wore a splint at school I was bullied for this and wearing one made me feel very self-conscious. I didn’t like showing it so wore trousers quite a lot even in summer. Kids bullied me because I couldn’t wear girls and women’s shoes I had to wear boys shoes as my splint made my shoe size bigger etc. By reading other people’s stories I realised that I wasn’t alone in feeling self- conscious and being bullied for wearing a splint. Reading others experiences made me feel that I was not a freak. I felt like a freak a lot of the time at school as that was one of things other kids called me.

One of the big reasons I love YOOCAN is how people write about their stories and their experiences they have had in a positive way but also keeping it real.

Being part of this community definitely helps me with my confidence and self-esteem as I can also write about my experiences; I find I can really relate to others with thoughts about being a disabled young adult on topics such as having to need more support than others my age. Or when my friends wear high heels but I have to wear flats. Just the simple small day to day things that you wouldn’t really think about or notice.

Lastly I think YOOCAN slogan “do anything” is so positive and sends a very powerful message to everyone. Just because someone has a disability that doesn’t mean they don’t have ambitions and dreams. It doesn’t matter who you are your dreams can come true!

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My 19 Goals for 2019

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Happy New Year to you all, I can’t believe its 2019 already!

As it is the beginning of the year I thought I would share with you 19 goals I have for 2019. Here they are:

1. Surround myself more with the people who make me feel more positive and happy.

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2. Know that it is ok to say no

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3. Try new recipes

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4. Get better at budgeting

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5. Read or listen to more books, magazines, radio programs and podcasts

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6. Post regularly on my defeatingdisability Twitter Page

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7. Join a gym and go swimming more

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8. Do my own photography projects

 

9. Experiment and try out new makeup looks

 

10. Create myself a blogging schedule so that I am more organised and can upload more content for you all to read.

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11. Get back into doing different types of journaling for example art journaling

 

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12. Do more volunteering

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13. Create myself little reminders of things I could do for my own self love and self-care.

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14. Don’t be afraid to try new things and give things a go.

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15.Build up my body confidence

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16. Embrace my curly hair more

 

17. Learn more about how to care for a range of different animals

 

18. Try not to focus on the past but look towards the future more

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19. Write down my achievements however big or small, so I can look at them when I feel down.

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I would love to know what your 2019 goals are, you can comment below . Or send me a message on any other defeatingdisability social media pages .

I wish you all a very happy new year full of love, happiness, laughter and adventure!